Seriously…..
Why is it that after 21 years I still really, really dislike needles???? Here I am 5 days into an established pump sight and it’s past time for change. I woke up today knowing I needed to change the sight and have put off doing so ALL DAY LONG!!! I put it off through both footballs games today….after all, I couldn’t miss a big play, could I? I used Bejeweled Blitz as an excuse, I used laundry as an excuse, used fixing dinner as an excuse, and now I’m contemplating saying that I have to prepare the kids’ lunches for tomorrow as an excuse. I’m running out of time and excuses! I’m sure those on the outside might find my trepidation a little funny, but actually it’s not. It’s very real and never seems to subside.
You know how before the doctor is about to do something “uncomfortable” he says, “okay, blow out…..NOW”? Well, that is how I get through each and every sight change. DON’T LAUGH, LISA….you’re tougher than I am! 
Instead of “blowing out”, I say a Bible verse or start singing a song. Usually it’s “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”…..except since “I” isn’t a diaphragm “pusher” I “push” by saying it this way, “Through Christ I can do all things” (and boy do I push that “through”). Sometimes I get Olivia to laugh when I break out with an inspiring rendition of “Jesus Loves the Little Children” or “Jesus Loves Me”. Whatever works is what I do. The sucky thing is that after I go through all that and it still hurts, I usually holler out, “Damn it, now why did that have to hurt!!!!?????” Okay, I don’t say that when Liv is in the room but I when she’s not around……I do say it, and I usually say it with tears in my eyes (you can ask Tom). Sometimes the “sting” lingers a little too long for my taste…and comfort.
For those of you who MDI or pump and change sights with ease…..my hat is off to you! I’ll try to keep working on the courage part. *sigh* ….in the mean time, I’m off to my bedroom to do a little singing. Jesus does love me; I know He does, and He is in complete control….even when it hurts a little.
LOL…you know me soooo well…i was laughing at that exact part! ok…here’s the thing…i just think ur too darn skinny and need to gain some weight so it won’t hurt so much
sorry. i understand. i’m not that way with this set, but i was really nervous with my last set. i didn’t like the inserter…can’t even imagine the sillouette that you have to insert manually! NO WAY! i actually think they have an inserter for that one now! Funny how some things never change tho…I agree…or not funny i guess. Good luck with conquering your fear! I’ve got plenty of them to work on too! love ya! L
oh my goodness, you use the sillouette?! no wonder you freak out each time you have to put it in!!! i’m with lis, gain some weight like the rest of us and you can use the WONDERFUL quickset!!
Christin, My daughter has the silhouette with the inserter. She will not insert it herself. I gladly do that for her. It hurts much worse in the belly than it does in the well, lets just say “her backside”. I can only imagine and I understand why you put it off. When she and I dread the site change, I just remember, at least we are not giving shots 5 times a day. I am thankful for that. I actually asked her tonight if she would ever want to go back to the shots and she said NO WAY!!! God Bless you and everyone else with Type 1. I pray for you all every night.
Hey all….I have to let you know that I do not use the silloutte now. I did use that while I was pregnant with Olivia (9 years ago), though, and that is one of the reasons I went off the pump in 2001. I did not have an inserter and it was awful! I now use the quickset with the inserter. It’s not that it always hurts….it’s that it might hurt (might being the operative word). I look at it this way – we all stub our toe or smash our fingers occasionally, dance around, say “owowowowow”, then get over it. When I stub my toe I usually don’t know it’s coming so it doesn’t seem to hurt quite as bad. For me, it’s the fact that I’m about to possibly inflict pain on myself. That’s my issue – I just don’t like the thought of making it hurt. Thank you, Deb. Tell your daughter I pray for her, too!
ps…not gaining weight, you two! <3
Thank you Christin. I get what you are saying. She braces herself when its time for me to press the button. It is the anticipation. Sometimes I get, “I didn’t feel a thing” Sometimes I get ” you do it horrible” LOL I take it in stride. Trust me, I would rather swap places with her. I mean that with all my heart. Take care and God Bless.
~Deb~